Never Ending

..............

2010-03-05T20:19:00.002+08:00

i just miss him .
Miss every single things bout him.
miss every single things bout us.
try not to think of it ..
but i'm just not use of it... as we have been together for years ..
Sigh ~

For u,My precious J *

2010-03-03T11:27:00.002+08:00

Its feelings from my heart,

Which I need to write,

Worded tokens I convey,

Both in love and light.

Words written in sincerity,

With continuous flow,

Hoping to keep in touch,

The only way I know.

Each poem of love written,

I send on over to you,

As we are oceans apart,

This is all I could do.

As with every word I write,

The feelings are true,

Love flows continuously,

In heartprints for you.

my world.

2010-03-03T11:12:00.003+08:00

The thought of you makes me wonder,

How little things in life can get me under,

It really made me see,

That you mean a lot to me.

You’re the light of my everyday sun,

The laughter in my fun,

You’re the formation of my favourite constellation,

And you relieve me of all of my frustration.

You showed me the miracle of love,

And helped me when things got rough,

You were there for me from the start,

And now you’re the beating of my heart.

You’re the weakness in my knees

The warmth in a cool breeze,

You’re the smile on my face,

And the pace in my race.

You invaded all of my thoughts,

And impressed me with you’re knowledge ,

With all the special moments you’re stealing,

You give my life real meaning.

You are my knight in shining armor

Protective, like a daughter’s father

The thought cut through me like a knife

When I realized: you are my world

- one & only *J* -

letting you go

2010-01-30T10:35:00.003+08:00

I miss you
Since you’ve gone away
Part of me is missing
I feel it as I lay

My head down on my pillow
So soft and comforting
But it doesn’t ease the pain
My heart is still hurting

It aches to see you
One last time
To show how much I love you
Yet, I know this is a crime

I can’t help
But to think about the world
You tried to protect me from
When I was a young girl

You guide me
Along my journey in life
When no one else was there
You help me cope with strife

You taught me to be strong
And to be aware
Of people’s bad intentions
Their ability to be unfair

I’m not the sweet defenseless girl
I started out to be
You made me so much braver
Well, that and poverty

I will cherish you
And the memories that I have
Of being together
All the good and bad

To shed tears for you
Which I’m sure will happen at times
To remember our time together
And read these heart-felt rhymes

I have accepted that you’re gone now
And I have to set you free
No more haunting my dreams
Love you dearly

I would still love your visits, though
Every now and then
You are part of my life
And will be to my end.

I have to let go, so………..I’m letting you go.

you.

2010-01-30T10:21:00.002+08:00

My red heart is blue,
because I'm missing you.
Every day, I think about you,
and I use to imagine how great
every hour, every minute,
and every second would be
if you were here with me.
Every night, when I lie in bed,
I dream about how things could be.
And if you believe in your dreams hard enough,
someday they will come true for you.
but now,the dreams that we use to dream together are all shatters,
All i can is to think of it as a loving memories of us.

trying hard to let go.. but..

healing ..

2010-01-27T03:23:00.002+08:00

I always knew that looking back to the cries would make me laugh, but I never knew that looking back to the laughs would make me cry.While being in love there are two requirements: heart breaking and healing. Healing takes time.
People come and go...left memories.....and the future is waiting,for a new beginning and everything is Mystery and nothing is Eternity and some might say,at the end..everything will be ok ~

Over. The End .

2010-01-27T02:59:00.002+08:00

It's over now,we have no choice but to move on.
Our love,time we spent and special moments are gone.
We now have our different lives to live,places to see,
I wonder if ten years from now you would remember me?

Maybe we will find our way back to each other some day,
what the future hold's i don't have the power to say.
It's so hard to say goodbye to you,I never wanted us to be
like this but the world is still going to turn.
I'm taking this as a lesson learnt.

Sometimes I would wish So hard that we would be,but
I was naive i now see.
It couldn't work,distance had us far apart,but i know
you'll always be indelible in my heart.
They say "time heals all wounds" but i disagree,any thought
of you makes my old wounds bleed anew.

I never wanted to give up,life can be So unfair,
I cherish your memory because it's all i have.
But to every good & bad story has an end,
It's time to say goodbye to our relationship as it is already end.

My Treasure. I love u guys deeply~

2009-10-26T10:06:00.003+08:00

For you all make it sure to be with me,Even during wee hours of the day
Our lives are sometimes filled with laughter,
But when grief, troubles or even despairs strike us,
The best things to take away all these pain,
Is friends like you all who truly cares,
We just sit, type and read between lines,
Exchanging views, feelings and emotions
We all have our own problems,Always needing somebody to share with
My thoughts are for friends like all of you,Who give inspirations and precious effort,
Making my day even brighter.
To appreciate all things as they come,
If I could give you all a falling star,I would do it just for you guys,
To share its beauty and glory,Together enjoying the splendor of nature
The answer is true and very simple,Though we don’t see each other’s faces
The Lord gave me a great Gift,
A truly sincere friends indeed.

Malvin The Chubby Puffy Goody fren of mine =)

2009-09-28T23:36:00.002+08:00

I still remembered the 1st time i met u dearest malvin.We said 'Hie' to each other while i was waiting for my fren at the main entrance of IPG after the orientation ended.U sat behind me on the 1st day of our class,well..Our friendship is so strong that we are such a good friend till now.. Miss u SOO MUCH when u went for ur mission for 2 years.... Its been 4 years now (if i'm not mistaken) since the 1st day we get to know each other..

Just to let you know Malvin..I’m thinking of you.. a friend who is fun,Special and warm hearted,Extra special and amazing super sensational with every memory we shared through the years and with every laugh we laugh and every tear we share,I’m so glad I have a friend like you. When one smile stops, a new one appears.You're someone who cares for me,Someone to laugh with and share things with. Someone I can count on,Someone to help me out and back me up and never let me down.

For that special person you are and for all the things you do,You’ve been caring,You been wise. When I refuse to listen,you been strong .When I felt weak,you were there to strengthen me. *Want to say thank you Malvin,You’re a great friend and for whom you are You’re my Very good friend.*

dear i love u

2009-09-28T11:52:00.002+08:00

You are my hugs,my smiles and every morning kiss,
My "See You Later Baby" in which I seem to miss.
My gentle whispers of "I Love You's" in the middle of the night,
My warm,soft arms around me that embrace me oh so tight.
My afternoon "I'll be there's" that give me butterflies,
My kisses when you see me that catch me by surprise.
My "Are You Okay Baby's?" when you know that I'm alone,
My "Don't Worry Love" I'm on my way home.
My every night kisses that send shivers down my spine,
Oh My Love,I'm glad that you're all mine.
It's Been years now and the feelings are still the same,
I'm so spoiled by your love and I have you to blame.
You are so perfect for me in so many ways and I am grateful for you,
You are everything in my life just by being you...

U are the light of my life ~

2009-08-31T23:15:00.003+08:00

" Forever i will love you,for there is nothing in this world i want to do but love you and to be with you Now and Forever, Till the oceans dry and till the sun dim, I'll still be loving you Forever and for Eternity.My world is filled with absolute bliss.You silently crept into my unique soul and transformed me into this glowing rainbow of illuminating colours.Each day that passes,the colours became brighter and brighter,The reason being is and abundance of happiness. Happiness is a healthy mental attitude,a grateful spirit,a clear conscience and a heart full of love.
You are the key to the complex entrance to my heart. My veins for a gentle flow of my blood.The air beneath the wings of my soul. The well-grown roots of my being as a whole.The smile on my face,the twinkle in my eyes,the dreaming i do..Its all because of u dear ."

To You ...My Husband..

2009-07-25T17:25:00.003+08:00

*MY MAN *

You're my man, my mighty king,

And I'm the jewel in your crown,

You're the sun so hot and bright,

I'm your light-rays shining down,

You're the sky so vast and blue,

And I'm the white clouds in your chest,

I'm a river clean and pure,

Who in your ocean finds her rest,

You're the mountain huge and high,

I'm the valley green and wide,

You're the body firm and strong,

And I'm a rib bone on your side,

You're an eagle flying high,

I'm your feathers light and brown,

You're my man, my king of kings,

And I'm the jewel in your crown.

am back..!

2009-06-18T11:30:00.002+08:00

Well..its been awhile now.. anyway..Am back..
Everythings went terribly wrong as if my world has exploded and gone with the wind..
Neither of us are perfect.. Too much of something will lead to unhappiness.. He is the one i really love.. I love him More Than Anything in my life..
I was lost and So confuse without him in my life..
He is everything to me..
Rite now.. All i can do is to hope and wish that watever i hope ..pray.. desire and wish for..will come true..

Losing him has really changed my life..
Change to be a better gurl for him..
P.S I love You

Happy 21st Birthday Sweetie !!

2009-04-02T10:08:00.006+08:00

Happy Birthday to You~

Happy Birthday to April . .~

Happy Bithday to YOU!

Celebrated her 21st birthday at Mois on 1.4.2009 .. Well,she was born on 1st of april,so u can tell why her name is April.. Was my secondary school mate.. She has a good personalities and characteristics.. Love u gurl.. Hope our friendship will last forever..

Group Pic =)

* Me & My Gurls *

Together Forever~

31.3.2009 ( Tuesday )

2009-04-01T09:37:00.004+08:00

Walked around at Gurney Drive after lunch as it was still early for me to go to work..

went to work at 2pm-6pm.. Hang out with My gurl,Fiona after work..

He was with us as well =)

We bought few dresses for ourself in Midland ( the price of those dresses are really cheap ok..!Can bargain somemore ) .. Well actually my gurl planned to buy bag.. Went to gurney after that...Then we headed to Batu Ferringhi.. I bought a Very nice and simple bag over there..

We had our late dinner at Long beach Cafe..

Thats My Gurl =)

Talking to Jonathan

Busy talking *

Fiona~

my love~

Went for a walk again after dinner.. At the end of the day,she didnt buy any bag.. ( so i think today she is going to buy the one we saw in midland )

P.S: Its My pleasure to accompany u to wherever u wanna go gurl.. We are happy to spend our time with u as well =).. Love ya Fiona.

Love you To death~

Outing with him (yesterday)

2009-03-28T12:07:00.003+08:00

Woke up early in the morning.. Well,i actually plan to cook before i go to college but dad told me that he already cooked,the moment i wake up.. So i lazing around my bed till 11sumthing .. Ate my dad's delicious food..Indian food ah.. After my brunch,i prepared my self for college.. Went to find mum at island Hospital to pass her something..then dad send me to college.. Reached college quite early though,so i called up junitha and since she was already in college,we went for lunch.. Went to class at 2pm,and Guess wat!!?? No class again.. this was the 2nd time d.. but our lecturer do gave us few questions to do.. Went to library to finished up the questions.. My love reached my college at 4.15pm..and we went to gurney right after we dropped junitha at prangin mall..

Since i'm not working,so i wanna spend my time with him.. At first we didnt know wat to do or where to go..so we just walking around in gurney plaza..At last we decided to watch movie..so we bought tickets to watched " The Unborn " at 9.20pm.. Went back my house to for our early dinner.. After that,we headed back to gurney to watched the movie..
The movie was not that scary for me but there are some part that can really give u a heart attack..
Plan to go to Sunset Bistro with my love,but the rain ruined my plan,Ish.. So we went for a drive ..and headed back home
Was really sleepy d,so can update my blog on that time..

* Thats All i did on 27.3.09 ( Friday ) *

P.S: Although i'm always undecided on where to go,what to eat or what to do,Just being with u..Having u by my side..is already More then enough for Me,I Love You Dear~

so in love

2009-03-26T10:43:00.003+08:00

thanks for everything which u had done for me.
Trully appreciate it * HugSss *
U are the other part of Me.. I'll forever be your shadow..
Your happiness & sadness will always be in my vain..
Through thick or thin,you'll definately see me by your side till the end of time..
I always thought that Love will be the strangers things to me,
But when u touch,i realise that i finally found heaven by my side.

My Gurl~

2009-03-12T10:56:00.002+08:00

Well,thats my gurl~ Pretty huh..

I'm glad to know u~

You are such a wonderful person & a great friend

I'll treasure our friendship till death!

Love u so much gurl * HuGSss & Kisses*

Sign -_-"

2009-03-11T10:28:00.002+08:00

Get scolded from dad all the way from my house to college for waking up kinda late..since my class started at 9pm.. Well,here comes the best part..Was finding for my class and when i went in to my so -called class,i realised that the lecturer was not the lecturer who supposed to lectured me...Then went to find my co-ordinator..And GueSS Wat?! I was told that my lecturer is having a degree class..and THEy Are NOT AWARE OF THAt..so my class was cancel.. ANd Another Best PARt was.. My this particular class will only start on April!! And not this month.. Bloody Hell.. !!
So i called him..and well..i woke him up by calling him,Sorry!! Hehe.. Am waiting for him now..
Guess he will only reach my college 45 minutes later.. Well,at least thats better than staying in college till 2pm..doing nothing..
WAITING.....
WAITing......
WAiting......
waiting.......

P.S : Stupid Wet Wet!!

Good Morning !

2009-02-26T10:06:00.002+08:00

Woke up around 9something .. Cant sleep back d..
Later going to work till 10pm..
My next semester will only start on 9 of march..
.. HMmmm....

bored

2009-02-22T14:58:00.000+08:00

I'm alone at home..

Revising for my last 2 papers which is on Monday (tomorrow)

.." I'M Missing HIM Badly ".. SOb..SOb..

Cant wait for my exam to end!!

2nd Day of Chinese New Year

2009-02-03T01:41:00.000+08:00

Dad called me up early in the morning telling me that they already in BM ,heading to my uncle's house which is nearby my love's house..Yawned~~~coz it was so early in the morning.. -_-" Sign.. So i cleaned up myself..woke my love up,coz i needed him to send me to my uncle's house.. Reached uncle's house around 8something a.m.. Well,its been a very long time since the last time i met him and his family.. their new house was quite big and beautiful.. Spend my time with them and my family over there,ate steamboat..chit chat..and etc.. Went back to my love's house at around 1something p.m..to learn how to bake fruit cake from popo ( my love's grandma )

The front view of my uncle's house,Nice huh..

In the living room-Grandma,dad and Mum

* Me *

- My Uncle -

* Mum & Grandma eating *

My beloved dad sleeping

Big Brother sleeping as well ..'Sign'

* My dearest younger brother,Brandon *

Shy little Don boy & Me

Thats me-surfing the net :p

The moment i reached home,i straightly went to change my clothes and went to the kitchen to joined jason koko to see popo baking fruit cake..Popo is very old d,so she took quite long to complete the cake..Damn,was so sleepy..so went to sleep after everything was done.. Kuku knocked on the door so hard till i woke up..well,she was actually calling us to wake up to prepare ourself for dinner anyway =) Thanks kuku!.. Went to eat nasi kandar with my love, Jason ,Adrian, kuku, ku chong & popo..

After that..Jason,Adrian,my love & me went to Jusco ..planned to watch movie but time didnt suited Jason,so we walked around in jusco.. Ended up in gent's shoe department,all the guys looking and trying up shoes and as for me..i was just walking here and there and snapping pictures.. After Adrian koko bought the shoe that he wanted,we headed back home.. Played bomberman with Jason's iphone till so quite long..so went to sleep after that.. was quite sad though,coz kuku,Jason and Adrian are going back to KL the next day.

Jason looking at shoes

~ Jason koko ~

Adrian waiting for shoe

* My Love trying on shoe *

well,i'm bored O_o"

waiting for them

~ LOVELY People ~

3rd Day of Chinese New Year
We woke up at around 1oa.m to have breakfast with everyone before kuku and her families went back to KL.. They left house at 1something p.m.. Well,popo,me and my love were very sad though.. Really MISS them A LOT!!! Cant wait to see them again next year~~

Went to gurney with my love after they went back..spend my whole afternoon with my love ( I LOVE YOU MY LOVE )..HUGSsss & KISSEss ! Well,i went to worked after that..till 10p.m..

So i guess thats all for now..

Go0d Night. WINKX!

1st Day of Chinese New Year

2009-02-01T02:36:00.000+08:00

We went toSunway Carnival Mall after spending some time at home.. While Everyone were busy visiting and collecting 'ang pau',we spend our time wandering around in malls XD

Left the mall after we bought movie tickets of "Underworld" to be watch at 11.30pm.

** MUAKSS *

.Leaving Sunway Carnival Mall.

~ My Beloved ~

~ Me ~

After that,we went to Jusco for a walk..and bought some food back from Siam Espress. Reached home just in time for dinner and we had our dinner with kuku ( our beloved aunt ), grandma ..Well..not forgetting our adorable yoda,,pity him as he was not allowed to eat anything..so he can only look at us enjoying our food

** AWwwwww ***

Later on at night,Jason and Adrian koko ( kuku's sons ) were back from Alor Setar.. Yoda was extremely happy to see them..Kept barking..-sign of Happiness-,lol. At around 10pm,,Me,him,and our cousin brothers went to watched 'Underworld' at Sunway Carnival Mall.

~My baby ~

Still early though,so we chilled at Starbucks while waiting for our movie to start.. Nice talking to both my cousin brother though =)

~ Jason ~

~ Jason koko again~

~ Adrian ~

** a tale of the two brothers **

Movie ended at 1am..headed back home.. All the guys talked to each other till late at nite while i'm sleeping soundly on my bed,zZZ~~~

Well,thats how i celebrated my 1st day of chinese new year.. although i did not do anything much on the first day of chinese new year but i'm glad that i spend my time with my love, kuku,popo, adrian and jason, thats one of the best chinese new year that i've experience so far.